#day12- January 12, 2016- Dear Diary, The struggle though...

Every time I type out the date in my title I feel the need to say....

"Dear Diary,..."

Random, I know. Maybe now that I've said it, it will be out of my system.

Tuesday! It was better than Monday, that's for sure! Not much better than Monday, but definitely better.... And by better, I mean I didn't hit the snooze button or get back in the bed. That's as far as it went though. I've completely gotten out of the routine of making my bed already. I think I'm going to try writing out my days, chore by chore to develop a better habit of handling my bih-ness because the way my life is currently set up( I actually hate that I quote that Kevin Hart line, but it's so necessary... Not really a fan of his, but I digress) I'm going to have to plan this out a little better.

It's amazing how I'm so disciplined at work. I set a goal for myself and I get it down... If I plan to be at work early, I usually do it. If I want to work an additional 2-4 hours, I do that as well! What is it about meeting my goals outside of work?? It's a daily battle I tell you!! 

Tomorrow starts my first day of the kickboxing class I signed up for... Let's see how this goes!! 

Until next time,

Stix

#dayfive- January 5, 2016: Self Discipline is key

Tuesday was much better!! I guess it takes a little slip up to put it all in perspective! After all, I didn't give up TV to be half doing life.... especially in the areas where I'm trying to do better. I took that mindset as I tackled day five! 

•No snooze button

•I made my bed (small, daily chore) 

•Tucker and I walked for longer, in the freezing cold...

•I made it to Starbucks (wide grin)

•I made it to work on time

•I didn't watch television

•I was off social media at 7pm

•I was in bed by 11am (Church went a little longer than usual) 

I know these seem like minor accomplishments, but most of them definitely helped set the tone for my day! I walked into work a bit more energetic, which is a lot for me because I'm not a morning person. I even talked to my neighbor at work who I find to be UBER annoying. I read an article before bed on self disciple and it talked about how people who practice self-discipline/ self control are happier than those who don't. I believe that to be true after today. I'm really feeling this!! I'll be reading that article over and over to keep me motivated to continue this new practice of self discipline in my life. Self discipline is learned behavior... I am determined to learn and grow in this area daily. 

I won't sit up here and lie like I was on cloud nine all day though. My job is a bit overwhelming at times and most often than not people get on my nerves... Thank God for a church that will take you straight to the throne room of Jesus and help you reel it back in though! It was one of those days... I needed to be in the presence of God and weep until I felt free from whatever was holding me down. Tuesday night is my church night so I was able to do just that! 

 I am so grateful for my home church! The service was epic!!! We literally partied all night! It was a night lead by the Holy Spirit through worship! I was freed from a lot of anxiety, fear, and worry.  I was reminded to give every care to God and let go of the burden that causes my frustrations, doubts, and even those feelings that I can't put a name to... #ibeinmyfeelings

 Day Five, all around, was awesome though. God brought everything back to focus... It all makes sense... I realized that He put it on my heart to take this challenge and He showed me a glimpse of where He's taking me this year!! 

Looks like it's going in a totally different direction than what I had planned! Keep tagging along... I'll keep you in the loop! 

Until next time, Stix